I have to admit that when the weather starts to cool off my mood improves, and yesterday was such a gorgeous day that I couldn't help but to feel better. After a weekend spent inside due to illness, it was a welcome reprieve, but the weather wasn't the only reason I felt so well. A couple of months ago, I posted about having some health issues and that I had to wait until early October to go back to the doctor for the follow up. My appointment was yesterday.
I don't want to go into too much detail about what exactly is going on. I'm sure that nobody really wants that much information. I will, however, report that I found out that I am going to be fine. The issues I was/am facing are manageable and will be monitored, thank goodness, but before yesterday I had dealt with worry, fear and questions, such as, "Will I be able to have children?" It's not that I'm married or even dating anyone seriously. Even at 41, I haven't planned on having kids anytime soon, but I didn't want my body to limit my opportunities in the future. I also feared death because my grandmother passed away from ovarian cancer and I'm just not ready to go yet! I have things I want to accomplish on this earth before I do.
So for the past two months, I have hidden a little. I've been inside my own mind. But yesterday, I was told that I wouldn't need surgery at this time and that I could still have kids if the time is ever right. James went with me so that I wouldn't have to handle the news by myself if it was the opposite. Realizing that I was blessed with a good report and an awesome friend made yesterday one of the most beautiful days so far. I'm really grateful. Now, on to use the time I have to put goodness into this world! Yippppeeeee!!!!